Losing Drive

There comes a time when you just are not as motivated as you used to be. It can happen with school, dating, work, social life, homework, ballroom dance team, dating... Some areas of my life are taking priority over others even if they shouldn't.

School:

Working on my fourth year of college! The last time I was so unmotivated was about two years ago when I was finishing up my sophomore year at Salt Lake Community College. How did I get through two more years after that? I got my Associate's Degree, before I took all the elementary education class offered, and transferred to the University of Utah. Well I cannot do that again, well I could, but that would be a very stupid thing to do. So I'm just pushing through with an even busier life with two jobs and the ballroom dance team. Leaving me very little time for homework... haha oops!

Work:

I have two wonderful jobs!!! I work in a diagnostic kindergarten as an assistant teacher. I love teaching those little 5 year-olds! They make everyday so much more fun!!! Some days they drive me crazy, but I still love 'em!
My second job is at the Cowboy Grub as a waitress. I love it too... some days it ruins my fun by preventing me from having fun with my friends and, then again, I work with a bunch of my friends. Some of the customers are crazy and some are super cool... then there are a lot of average ones too... :) I LOVE serving families because I love those kiddies! If you make the kids love you then the parents will love you too!

Homework:
Not going to waste my time on this subject. I'll just tell you that I have 3 hours with nothing to do and I'm choosing to do write on my blog and organize EVERYTHING ELSE.

Social Life:

I am a girl who has way more guy friends than girl friends. It's so much more fun that way!!! My guys range from all types of life styles! There's the Trio which consists of Griffin Mansell, Russell Davis, and myself. I love hanging out with those two, they just make me happy and we're goof balls!!! There is Ephraim Jaussi who is my movie buddy. We both love talking during movies and thus we go to random movies on random nights and critique them and make fun observations. I've seen some VERY good movies with him. Anthony Badger is my facebook buddy... hehe yep. To clarify, he and I have AWESOME conversations over facebook. In person we just make fun of each other and say ridiculous things. Tyler Voorhees is an old friend. We hung out a ton back when I was 18, but he got married to an awesome girl a couple years ago and I don't see him as much. He just is so positive and I love being around him. Josh Bates is one of my very best friends. I've found so much peace in our conversations during long drives. On the girl end, I have my set of girl friends who know everything about me: Allie Vincent, Sarah Matheson Snow, Amy VanTienderen, Elisa Warren, and Katie Butters. I love those girls more than you know. Their random texts of love and fun just make my day so much better!

Ballroom Dance Team:

Yep! I'm on the University of Utah Ballroom Dance Company again!!!!!!! It's so much fun and I can't even go to all the practices because I'm working so much. I just get to learn what I missed over the weekend and be ready for the next practice on Mondays. I get to raise $150 of sponsorships so if you're interested PLEASE let me know!

Dating:

Ah... dating... Let's just say that I've been trying to date as much as possible lately... I've sadly been unsuccessful though. I been spending time with some pretty awesome guys as of late and they remain nameless as to avoid awkward situations in the future. Just know that I'm totally up for blind dates... please?  

All in all my life is pretty busy, but I'm loving every minute of it! Whatever ups and downs may come, I love dancing in this roller-coaster of a life!

Up...dates

I am the type of person... girl... thing... :) that remembers dates with no problem! If there is the least bit of emotional difference from a normal day then I tend to remember the date. It is a curse and a blessing. Here are some dates in no particular order...

• July 29th - My birthday!
• January 29th - My 1/2 birthday - I have a summer birthday so in grade school I would celebrate on my 1/2 birthday!
• March 15th - Mom's birthday
• May 28th - Brandon's Birthday
• June 21th - Dad's Birthday
• November 5th - Cameron and Ashley's birthday
• December 8, 2010 - Allie left on her mission
• January 28, 2011 - I began dating Justin.
• February 8, 2011 - Justin  and I broke up, Allie was gone for 2 months... it was a hard day.
• September 15, 2008 - I got my first kiss!
• April 1, 2009 - I broke up with Mike... yep, April Fools.
• February 26th - Sarah's Birthday
• April 17th - Helene, Will, Justin, and Carly's Birthday
• July 22nd - Bryant's bithday
• November 25, 2011 - Bryant and I started dating "officially"
• January 8, 2012 - Bryant and I broke up... Not a fan of the 8th

There a tons more, trust me!

Broken or Unfulfilled Promises.

People tend to say that they will never hurt you. Lie. You CANNOT guarantee that! Please stop saying things like that people! It just makes it hurt more in the end.

Also I'd appreciate it if you didn't promise to fulfill a childhood desire and back out at the last minute. I get all hyped up only to have it come crashing down every time. I'm not good with disappointment. I've had way to much of it through my childhood and adolescence.

 I think 90 % of those who read this don't really know what I've been through and I won't put it on here.

I'm always looking for the silver lining, but still trying to dance in the rain.